I have been questioning my sanity for the last two years more than the last 30 combined.
One question I always ask “why can’t I settle with a normal 9–5 job, start a family and go to the cinema on the weekend?”
The answer would hit me right away “I have already done that sort of thing and it didn’t give me the feeling I wanted.”
So I jumped from job to job like a grass hopper, thinking that the next job would give me a little bit of the feeling that I am chasing;
But I never felt it.
Not even close.
When I quit my secure jobs, there was no future, no plan, no career and no security; I felt scared that such decision would lead me to a world of uncertainty.
I was right.
Every day I get the feeling that there’s no security, no stability and the future is very vague.
But through these mixed feelings and mood swings I get the feeling I was looking for.
Freedom to go to bed at 8.
Freedom to not work on Mondays.
Freedom to spend Christmas and New Years with my family in Sharm every year.
Freedom to travel, to explore, to learn.
Freedom to love, to work, to exercise.
Freedom to do whatever it is I want to do at any given time.
Provided I am healthy and loved; the world is my football field with full house and no referees.
Yes I felt many acquaintances taking a bit of a distance because they see my life as foolish, stupid and irrationally insane.
To an individual living a “normal” life, the characteristics of an extraordinary life seem foolish, stupid, and unrealistic. — a tweet
“If you want to live an exceptional and extraordinary life, you have to give up many of the things that are part of a normal one.” -Srinivas Rao
But I can’t help what others think of me. As long as I am not hurting anyone in whatever decision I make about my life, I feel I am doing the right thing.
Sometimes I used to think that an office job is a good thing for me. At least it’s stable, secure and it’s the easiest job in the world. You work. You go home. You make money. And you don’t have to worry about the future.
But for me this is a momentarily jolt of security. To feel secure on this planet I need to learn, explore, travel and discover.
Every time I visit a new place or learn a new obscurity about earth, I feel more connected to my sense of meaning.
The answer to the question “What’s life all about?” gets clearer when I learn something I didn’t know before.
my name is sherif and I love my life, In a way 😉