I just wanted you to know there will be a piece of you in me always, and I’m grateful for that. Whatever someone you become, and wherever you are in the world, I’m sending you love. You’re my friend to the end. – Her 2013.
Dear Readers (If any),
I would like you to know that I wouldn’t recommend you read what I write because I am not thinking of your well being as much as I am thinking of mine.
Many times you will hate what I write and feel that what I say contradicts with reality.
But I don’t know who you are and not sure whether you really look forward to my posts.
The only reason I write is the same as why I exercise.
To get the toxins out of my system.
I have filled my mind and heart with a lot of memories good and bad.
When I wake up in the morning I only think of her then cry like a baby helplessly while imagining that she will come and soothe the pain.
A few minutes later, I start writing what you’re reading.
I don’t think I should even call it writing; I don’t know what I should call it.
A daily journal maybe?!
I find writing to be the number one stress and anxiety reliever in my life right now, without it I would have pounded the pavements until I couldn’t move.
Seconds before I started writing this post I broke down in tears after watching https://youtu.be/VD4jXcAGuvQ
I remembered my life with her.
She was my friend, my lover, my mate, my buddy and my baby.
Losing someone I love is just unbearably acceptable and slowly devastating.
Last night a friend asked me for advice on how to win a girl’s heart back after she lost trust in him.
For the very first time I could feel the wound of someone else in love; I gave him what I learned from advice and sincerely wished that it would work cause I wouldn’t want anyone to experience what I experience.
Earlier in the morning I met a girl who loves a guy with her heart irrationally just like in my situation.
She asked “how can I win his heart?” I said “If he’s a rational guy who thinks with his head before his heart, it will be very difficult to please him”
I later developed a concept that there are two type of people when it comes to love:
1) There are the people who rationalize everything in their head and save the emotional feelings for later when everything in their minds align with the reality of the situation.
For example, they ask all the questions how we are going to live together, where we will live, am I going to like his mum, et cetera.
2) There are the people who act with their heart and follow nothing except their emotions.
They simply love and not worry about any rational thoughts; love gives them complete meaning and that everything concerning life will be sorted out as long as there’s love.
Which type you fit in and whether you agree with me is up to you to add your comments below (which I will be very happy to get a comment once in a blue moon).
Whether you choose to Love or to Rationalize, it’s your life and no one can dictate the way you want to live it.
But please understand that people love differently, some with their head and some with their heart.
When you fall in love with someone I’d suggest you read “The 5 Love Languages: The Secret to Love that Lasts”
I wish I had read it before I fell in love.
Have a good weekend.
my name is sherif and I feel better now, thanks for reading.